Not the end of the road

Even though I am done with chemo, had the mastectomy, done with radiation, I still have to recover and will have Keytruda till the end of the year and willl have reconstructive surgery in the spring. Left still goes on. Recovery will still happen. The physical recovery will be probably easier than the emotional and mental recovery. For almost a year my body has been put through hell without a chance to fully recover so that is the focus now.

Emotionally and mentally still not sure I have caught up. I had cancer-I killed that cancer and now I have to survive that cancer. Everyday will be a new discovery of what it has taken from me and what it has left me and what it has given me back instead of what I had. I wish I had answers for everything and could tell you everything I’ve learned. And that probably is what my next posts will be. My biggest learns right now are I survived and I have a lot to be grateful for. I met incredible people that I might not have met if I hadn’t had cancer, hopefully I can be a better wife, mother and friend because I know it’s not about just getting to the right spot….. it what you do a long the journey, the people who’s lives you impact, what you leave behind when that part of the journey ends and what you take with you. The strength you didn’t know you were capable of having and it is ok to ask/need help.