In this cancer journey I promised I be honest and real and not sugarcoat anything since my journey was made public. I want to make one thing completely clear. This is my journey and my feelings. Everyone’s journey is different and unique and specific to them. Each person will have some of these experiences and some will have others. Relief that this part is over I have finished my last Keytruda and the only thing left is the reconstructive surgery. That is the visible tangibl

Even though I am done with chemo, had the mastectomy, done with radiation, I still have to recover and will have Keytruda till the end of the year and willl have reconstructive surgery in the spring. Left still goes on. Recovery will still happen. The physical recovery will be probably easier than the emotional and mental recovery. For almost a year my body has been put through hell without a chance to fully recover so that is the focus now. Emotionally and mentally still not

I wish I could tell you radiation is easy. To me it was the worst or maybe it was just because it was the last step in my process and emotionally I was done. The only appointment I went by myself this whole process was when I did the ct scan and the original mapping of where the radiation was going to hit. I am claustrophobic and have become very anxious during this whole process so that didn’t help. My first day was supposed to be mapping with the radiation starting the nex

So the first thing you do and radiation is you get a CT scan. During this procedure, they are mapping you out for the locations that you will receive radiation for. You will get at least three markings so they can line you up in the machine where you will have your radiation done.. you will also be put in a pillow that mold to you to help align you into the table for radiation. Because my breast cancer was on the left side during radiation, you have to fill your lungs with ai

Chemo is done, mastectomy is done, in a waiting pattern for radiation and then will be in a waiting pattern for reconstructive surgery-...

I would like to say that I don’t have any but unfortunately there are a few. The brain fog hasn’t lifted yet. My thoughts are a bit...

During surgery they put temporary implants - expanders in if you are going to have reconstructive surgery. These expanders are sutured...

I have had issues with self esteem and self worth my whole life. This isn’t making it easier. I feel broken and worthless at the worst of...

Well I am over 6 weeks out from having the procedure done and here is the good and bad and ugly. The day before the procedure, I had to...

So I was hoping not to have to do radiation since the pathology report from the mastectomy came back as a complete result meaning that...

Many people have wondered about the financial impact and are afraid to ask. A couple people have said it must be expensive and yes it is....

There are so many things that happen during the process and it is hard to put into words or come to terms with everything that happens...

So I had my last treatment on June 23. I rang the bell and felt a relief that part was over but also the anxiety of the upcoming surgery....

I have always had long hair since I can remember. It has never been shorter than my shoulders. There have been many of times where I go...

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So my last chemo will be Monday. It is surreal that I have been on this journey for 6 months. One step closer to being cancer free but...

A word that sometimes isn’t talked about or even associated with cancer but being ashamed is and has been one for me. I am ashamed I got...

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I never intended for my personal journey to get out. I never intended for this blog to happen and I never intended to share my big and...

One have a safe supply of draino on hand. You’re going to lose a lot of hair and most of us is going to be in the shower. Also check your...